Wah...just found a Yuuto shrine. Although I'm sure many appreciate him as he is, (wah...bishonen~) ^_^ I think that he is often overlooked in the X series, and it's great finding a shrine to him~ woohoo~ ahh...which reminds me...Yuuto's seiyuu in the movie~~~Inoue Kazuhiko...*_*
::Feels like crying:: Even though I got to go see Harry Potter the movie, I'm in a horrible mood. Not that there's anything wrong with the movie, of course , but I'm going through some stress. ::sighs:: I'm gonna move far away from here, far away from my family and relatives--I'm gonna take myself as far from them as possible without leaving the country altogether. I'll go to the East Coast. Not Texas, got relatives there. Not Michigan, got relatives there. Not New York, got relatives there too. Not Virginia, got relatives there also. Probably New Jersey or Florida. Somewhere urban and noisy, like a big city. My friend's parents are gonna follow her to San Diego when she goes to USG. The poor girl. She told me she's gonna travel with me to the moon. That would be very nice. I would have a buddy who understands my family problems and we'd be far away from our families. We'll have other people join us too. Whoopee. Black sheeps and rebels should stick together. Adios.
So tired....~ I went to a friend's party today with Izzy, and it was SO draining...There was a dj and all these people dancing and everything, but I really didn't feel comfortable dancing with so many people I don't know. Maybe because I just don't really like dancing...*Just admit you can't dance* Fine! I admit I can't dance! ;_; Wish I can dance, but even if I knew how to, I would still feel weird.
*cough cough* Anyway, I found the fog machine they had there pretty cool~ ^^;;
Ayimaka is trying to get me to like Harry Potter, and I am currently reading the first book just to give it a chance. I actually find it quite interesting, and Koge-Donbo's "Hari Pota" shrine certainly does NOT discourage me from reading it...I LOVE HER ART!!! *_* I'm going to finish the book to really see if I want to continue reading the rest of the series or not, but I probably will, knowing me...^_^;
Ahhh~! I have a sudden urge to rewatch all 16 Digi-Charat Episodes now plus all the specials~ ::goes off to glomp the PKO::
I've been missing my cousin a lot lately. She's so fun to hang out with -- it's unbelievable. She's like the sister I never had. I've had some of the greatest memories with her. Every time I see her, we go crazy and act like complete children. Not in a bad way, though. It's really fun. I think it's because we get to act different from how we normally act when we're with our friends. For instance, I know I can act a certain way with her that I'd never be able to act out with my friends. I don't know...it's like she brings out this outrageous side of my personality. But it kinda makes me wonder...am I being true to myself? Just because I don't act with my friends the why that I act with my cousin or my family, am I putting up this act and lying to myself and others? Or is that also a part of my personality that I do that? I mean, it's not like I'm totally different. I don't know. It's really confusing. Anyway...I'm really wanting some Jelly Belly jelly beans in Buttered Popcorn flavor. Those are so cute and delicious. I love them soooo much! Time to write Jelly Belly and ask for more samples...hehe. Jeez, school is so tiring. Shopping is tiring also. Went shopping with konran today and I am totally wiped out. My eyelids are so heavy. And tomorrow's a big day. I've got to go to the library and my friend's humongous party. Man, I hope it's fun. I definitely need some more fun in my life...I think everyone does.
Wah, I'm sorry for linking you so suddenly, joy-san ^_^; I saw your blog and it was pretty interesting, so yeah...O_o; Oh yeah, what do you mean by "Very shocking stuff"? O_O; As for everyone else I linked, it was due to your interesting blogs ^_^ so please don't kill me or feel offended *sheepish grin*
::blink:: oh yeah, so about my day~ I was SICK today ;_; ::sob:: I'm feeling a lot better now, but yeah, still woozy...O_o_O_o;
dang~ Some pretty deep thoughts, 'maka-chan~ *grins* guy problems are tough~ that's why I don't bother. *smile* You think too much about him. Is he really that worth it? @_@ I mean, if you really see something in him that's worth it, I say go for it, but otherwise, yeah...O_O gomen..but I have this weird problem with lack of trust, especially for guys. B-but! I'm not saying guys are dumb or anything, they're just fine if you get along with them as friends. In fact, I believe I have more guy friends than girls *_* It could be because none of the girls I know are into gaming and such... ~_~;; ahhhh...anyway, good luck~ I'll just stay on the sidelines and shout out lame advice (ohoho~!!) *laughs and waves pompom's* A-Y-I-M-A-K-A! Go Ayimaka! Too much sugar really ain't healthy for a person----> *runs off to stalk some bishonens*
Feeling creeped out...I don't want sick-minded guys coming forth from behind and putting their arms around me. >_< Not welcomed if you're not my boyfriend! >_< Also feeling bad from a heartache. *sighs* Wondering what he's thinking. Wait, he doesn't think--he works. -_-;; He works really hard and hardly cares about hanging out with his friends, let alone giving me a few minutes to talk to him. -_-;; *sighs* I'm going around in circles and circles and circles, so I'm getting nowhere and getting nothing but heartaches. He's awfully confusing and so is the guy that E likes. (We get along well cuz we're going through the same guy problems. -_-;; But it's nice to talk to someone who understands.) The guys that we've fallen for are so confusing... When we talk to them alone, they're sweet and nice...but when they're with their friends, it seems like they hardly know we exist. Why do guys do that? I'm not saying that every guy does this, but why does it happen? Also...falling for someone is so utterly ridiculous...yet it happens anyways. Eventually, I'll get over A...I know I will...I know it...but right now he's the only one in my heart and the only guy I care very deeply about. Sometimes I wonder why I fell for him in the first place and why I didn't jump out when I knew better. "Why him? What do you see in him?" my friends have asked. I ask myself that too, but I don't really have an answer. He's sweet, nice, and gentle...a simple, honest, and hardworking guy...these good qualities really shine in him...but then he can be a crabby jerk at times and there are a lot of guys with better personalities, but it's only him I'm thinking of. It's really WEIRD. "You can't control it," N said... I wish it could be controlled, though. It hurts too much to keep on carrying on. I don't know what's happening between us. Probably nothing at all...because I'm not doing anything and neither is he. I refuse to bruise my pride *again* but I'm thinking really hard about this because some friends have urged me to follow through with "ALL or NOTHING." It's a good idea...but I don't want to lose everything...it was really hard to rebuild our friendship and I don't want to mess it all up again. I have our fragile friendship, so I don't want to lose it all for nothing...but I don't wanna keep wondering and going in circles, either. *sighs*
Some more thoughts...
A lot of people like hugs... It's nice and friendly to get and give... It's especially cool if a cute guy hugs you (^ ^;). But someone kinda killed it for me. My baby bro asked me why I don't like hugs and I just shrugged him off. I know the reasons, inside. There was this guy who started to hug me everytime we bumped into each other at school. They were nice hugs...but I hated the way he was too close to my neck. And I hated that he kept on insisting I'm pretty. I'm not and I know it's true. He's a nice guy, but I HATE that he cares A LOT about looks. I HATE that he compliments me on the way I look. I'm not pretty. No NO NO. I'm *especially* against people like him because I believe that inner beauty is really important...that looks aren't what they appear to be. Yeah, it's kinda like the thing between Rosemary and Hal in the movie "Shallow Hal." She tells him, "Please don't keep telling me I'm pretty and that I'm not fat because it makes me feel very umcomfortable." She's not the most attractive woman, but Hal can't see her outer beauty. She tells him this because she knows better.
Damn...they drove for a lil fun and then they get into a sad accident. The friend's face is all damaged...my God...but my cousin gets out without a scratch. Driving is making me nervous. I'm supposed to be driving this year.
I’m officially living in this new house. I feel...strange...not happy or sad or miserable.
Sure, I’m missing the old house, but it’s pretty nice here... Haha, I’m not complaining
much. Maybe that’s what’s missing. XP It IS strange, really...I mean, one day my brothers and I followed our parents to a funiture store to buy a new dinner table. We found one and that was that. On our way back, however, my parents noticed this house...so they stopped the car and went to talk to the strangers there and SURPRISE! The next thing I knew was that they had just bought the house. O_o I didn’t expect that. I didn’t even see it coming.
It’s really hard to converse in Spanish with my dad’s costumers: “Mi papa...um,
owns...a...una tienda... Yeah, I mean, SI! ...Que tiempo?” XP
*Sighs* Too much hw and too much to unpack and organize... X0
WAHHHHHHH~~~~I have so much homework to do this weekend...O_O; Thank goodness I have a day off of school tomorrow. Demo....still a lot of work. I'm taking some time off right now to think of the next layout for Silver Illusions. I'm probably not gonna change it for still some time longer, probably not until the end of November. I already promised one of my friends, , that I would make an Ayashi no Ceres layout. So I'm probably gonna lean towards that...or not ^_^; It actually depends on the mood I'm in, but I promise that I'll do an AnC one sometime in the future~ ^o^ Some of my other friends and I are also deciding whether or not to start another blog site. I don't exactly know what's happening yet, but I'll get back to you on that. If I start another one, that will be a lot more work for me...still...hmmmmm....or maybe we can just let them join this one and just add more members if Ayimaka doesn't mind. She's in the process of moving right now, so I'll have to talk with her about sometime soon. ^^
Yay, this blog is now part of the ring, Otaku Blogs!
I feel A LOT better now~ ^_^ took me several hours just to slap myself out of my one-day-depressing attitude~ O_O; I love my Haruka manga!! ^O^ Of course, it could also be the Seki Toshihiko songs that cheered me up. ^_^
Yeah, I visited Engrish.com and laughed my head off after reading some captions of the flawed english on certain products. Go there! It's hilarious! ^o^
Still need to put up more links.....some other day...too tired now....zzzZZZ...
Don't know why I felt bummed out the whole day today...It's just one of those days, ya know? Life's just been crappy for me lately. Kami-sama must love torturing little old me. The only thing that's cheering me up at all right now is my collection of Haruka manga that's been sitting there, begging me to read them~ maybe I'll go do that...hopefully I'll be in a happier mood the next time I sign on. ~_~;
People , go rent GLORY, an American Civil War movie--one of the best movies ever. Music--beautiful. Characters--unforgettable. Plot--dramatic and so sad. Sure Robert Shaw was a jerk , but later you learn to love him. You also gotta love his friend , Tripp, Thomas, the guy who had good aim, and the guy who was made Major, I believe. ::Will you shut up now, Ayimaka!? I know... >_< but GO WATCH IT. You don't know what you're missing out on, I guarantee it.:: ~ ~ ~ Dude, I'm so glad it's finally the weekend!!! I've been so stressed out... 90309DH!$@^$uyHAFAOFH049785 8743!$$y Sf !@$$ tHERE. i THINK i FEEL BETTER... o_O I needa go throw ice cubes later to release my frustration. ::Listens to music to calm herself down.:: Now I'm worried. I know I flunked that calculus test AND the Spanish test. Noooooooooooooooo! ='C ::::: Lyrics from "The Sun Still Shines" by LFO... I know the rain still falls, I know the sun still shines, I know there will be better days if you were still mine... The sun still shines, the moon still glows, the world still turns... * And a song from I dunno who... "I never had a dream come true, till the day that I found you... Even though I pretend that I've moved on, you'll always be my baby. I never found the words to say, you're the one I think about each day... ::Yah, me thinking of someone.:: A memory I'm smiling about: "Do you see the props over there? I helped draw and paint them." Haha, he's so adorable when he looks boyishly proud of himself. ^ ^
Hello, Ayimaka the airhead here. Airheaded because I care too much about trivial things. Here I am stressing about stupid social matters while people in New York are still grieving over the 9-11 attacks. I feel so stupid, ignorant, insensitive...and the list goes on. I know I should focus on more important things in life, but I just don't. Why? Maybe cuz I'm spoiled and I've always been given the best of the best in life...and I take them for granted. I don't wanna be spoiled. I don't want people telling me, "Well, you know, there ARE people out there who have MORE WORSE problems than you do." YES, I know...but that doesn't make my problems any less stressful and I certainly don't feel any better. I mean, don't judge people's problems in degrees of lightest and worsest. If you do that, you're judging them on a relative scale...you're comparing them to other people...and sometimes people don't want to be compared. Hell...we're all going through problems here...let's help each other...and not make each other feel worse.
Dammit...there goes another trivial entry. ::sighs:: My life is a lot better than others and I know it's true because of what happened on 9/11. I feel like I deserve a slap in the face because here I am, moping and complaining when I shouldn't be. Is that so wrong?? Oh yes it is...but I'm human too! Maggie from California Diaries said that people just don't understand why she is still complaining when she has the money and nice clothes. They don't know what it's like. She hates being famous. People think she's got it all...but she's unhappy because she never asked for these things in life. She just wants to be a normal teenager...and people don't give her room to breathe because they don't agree with the way she's thinking.
This just made my day- I am officially a Geek now. ^o^
Just to comment on her entry...I found all Mie Tsukikoushi said was so true about me, and for some other people...I mean, spending money on girly girl stuff? 'yada~ >< I also liked her last phrase...Xenogears..lol...so true, so true...~ Need to get back on my homework...signing off~
Another day yet same life, unfortunately. >=( I swear, if one more idiot bugs me, I will sooooo kick their sorry @$$! And I swear, if one more meticulous person talks about trying to get the data perfect, I will sooooo blow up at them. Very mean, I know. That's why my goal this week is to NOT LOSE MY PATIENCE. People aren't so bad, when I think about them. No one's perfect. I gotta be patient...don't make people cry or hurt their feelings...I would feel bad too. Besides, who says it's fun to be mean? It's not! ::sighs::
Anyways...I look at A, he looks away. Does mumbling count as "hi" and "bye"? When I look at him, he avoids making eye contact, like today at the beginning of lunch. Why we don't bother to say anything, I don't know. Maybe cuz we're both quiet. Later during lunch, I caught some of his glances. ::O_o:: Huh??? I'm lost. Does he really care or not? My head tells me to move on, reminding me that I hate having to wait for *a guy* but my heart tells me to be patient and to wait and see... Gawsh, anymore waiting and I'm gonna pop! And what's all this I hear about him being so mean and bad-tempered? Goodness, I think he's a gentleman when I talk to him. These things that I'm hearing about occurs when I'm not around to witness his flaws. L told me, "Damn foo, so unpredictable. So nervous around girls. He never lets himself make any mistakes around you. He's always perfect around you." This makes me really think...could it be...? I used to wonder what he meant. I mean, isn't he always well-composed and nice? Now, I think, Heck no, I'm the only one seeing his soft side. O_o And now I wonder...why did he accept the date when I asked him to the dance? Why?
For a long time, I just took blogs as something people do for aesthetic reasons. I thought they just wanted the attention, someone to respond to their nice layout, or just whatever..but yeah, I realize now that blogs are something we can just spill our thoughts over. Well of course, to many of you, that's pretty obvious, but I, for a while, didn't care what someone wrote or what they thought. Yet I know now that even useless things might be important to someone. This is just here for purely personal reasons, somewhere we can just list/write out anything we want, an outlet, if you will. Sometimes, we may get depressed, and that would probably affect what we write here. Other times, we may be dancing on our feet with joy, which would affect our entries also...Gosh, I just forgot what I was gonna write next...er...yeah, so this entry is basically why this blog exists at all in the first place. The layout and the pretty bishonen are just a side dish. *_*;
Hey...sup...anyone? If there are people out there who are reading this, COOL! Wow...my first entry and my first time ever with a website. (Thanks Konran!!!) Oki...I'm kinda nervous cuz I really don't wanna mess anything up... ::Gosh, I feel so stupid just thinking about all the computer geniuses out there. O_O:: Anyways...I was just wondering...What will my life be like in 10 years? And in the years after those? Will I ever become a happy bride dressed beautifully in a white gown...and walk along the seashore hand in hand with *whomever*...and enjoy the sunset together...and the rest of our lives together? Will I die an old maid...withered and lonely? Yup, the STARES. Why am I worrying about trivial things at this time? Why am I NOT worrying about the present--like my chem quiz this Friday? I don't know. Maybe cuz I'm an airhead, always worried about stupid things that don't really matter right now. But I think about these things anyways... *D* wrote a poem with the words "I hope to find a special someone to walk the path alongside me and to share my life with." O_o He's the last person I would expect to write those words. I mean, WAHHH? ::knocks:: Yes, I gotta remember that he's human too. But that's not the point. The point is, I wonder if I'll find someone to love and to be loved by, too. So *D*, I know how ya feel. * Latez...gotta do hw now. ::cries:: Too much!!
Silver Illusions~Gin no Genkaku is up and running...Not everything is up yet, and content is still down, but hopefully, everything will be running soon. ^_^
Name: konran
DOB: September
Sign: Virgo
Location: South California
Anime: Hikago, HxH, Inuyasha, SUGAR
Manga: Hikago, HxH, Hanakimi, Pretear
Character(s): Daaku Mousy, Krad, Tasuki, Crawford, Schu-schu ^o^; wah..too many...oh yeah!! how could i forget SANZO!! *_*
Seiyuu: Seki Toshihiko, Canna Nobutoshi, Inoue Kazuhiko, Koyasu Takehito
Current Obsessions: Manga/Anime, Doujinshi, Love sims and RPG's ^o^; Anime and Jpop music
Mood: Tired
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Name: Ayimaka ^_~ if u can figure out what it means, ur a genius
Nick: AyimakA AnGeL da RuBy RoSe
DOB: June '85
Sign: Gemini
Location: So Cali
Anime: Digimon Adventure & part of Digimon 02, Saiyuki
Manga: O_o;; i dont own any, but i luv the images from the DNAngel and Saiyuki manga. even Taichi looks kyute in the manga.
Character(s): Taichi Kamiya, Dark, Goku from Saiyuki, Hiead
Fav Chinese actor/actress(s): Dicky Cheung, Benny Chan, Rain Lau, Angie Cheung, Marianne Chan, "Diana" (dunno her real name ^^;;)
Current obsessions: Taichi, Dicky Cheung, LFO songs, movie themes (^_o;;;)
Seiyuu: Onasaka Masaya
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Name: izzymoto
DoB: March 16
Sign: Pisces
Location: LA
Tired
