-Saturday ~ January 19, 2002-
8:00 PM PST
I don't like communicating with relatives...but for the first time ever, I really do want to talk to the relatives who live in Hong Kong. I want to learn more about them and what happened in Grandpa's life before he left China. I also want to find out more about this mansion of his that stands today as a private memorial. O_O A mansion! I couldn't believe my ears the first time my mom told me about it. Later, I'm gonna find out more about him *and* my great grandfather, who was an important figure in his days.
I am learning so much about people this week--people around me. O_O J's father died when she was little...I had no idea. P is a subject of Britain, so in the future, she might go to college in England. O_O WOW. I think G's father is an important figure in Thailand. Before N moved to America, her family was very wealthy and well-known. So was M. ...And more info that I learned (which I can't remember at the moment V_V;;)...
Ayimaka
-Thursday ~ January 3, 2002-
10:30 PM PST
::Feeling crappy and depressed about college.:: Will I make it into a good university? Will I survive? Will I be able to handle the costs? And also...who will be on my side?
Right now: I have no one on my side. My family and my relatives from both my mom's side and my dad's side think that psychology is a stupid major and that being a psychologist means listening to crazy people talk about their problems. That's not what it's all about. It's only a fraction.
Do they believe me? No. Do they support me? No. Do they criticize me? Hell yeah.
I feel pretty damn crappy and alone cuz none of them understands me... I am sad, but I am determined... I refuse to let them get me down. This is the major I'm interested in and this is what I'm gonna stick to. I refuse to become a doctor just cuz "my cousin is a doctor." "How about becoming a dentist? The pay is good." No thanks. "How about medicine? It's a good major." Yes it is, but I have decided that I don't like it because there is too much chemistry involved and I'm am currently dying in AP chem. "How about becoming a lawyer?" Stop trying to decide for me. And what's up with becoming a lawyer/doctor? WHY do I have to pick one or the other? Why can't I go for something different?
::Sighs of relief.:: M went to UCI. She's an "Americanized" young *woman.* And she happens to visit my parents once in while. Terrific! Finally! Someone I can talk to about college! Someone who I'm sure will understand me! What's cool is that she's an accountant--not a lawyer, not a doctor. She's unique and I admire that. My goal is to become unique and successful, too. I refuse to succumb to the expectations of my family and my relatives.
This quote really stands out to me: "Emerson uncomfortably obeyed. His life was a series of attempts to establish his own identity against the background of expectation."
Ayimaka
-Wednesday ~ January 2, 2002-
08:20 PM PST
Hey all~ haven't blogged since last week...I've been lazy...heehee...Anyway, it's a new year, and I hope everyone has some New Year's Resolution they'll work hard on for the upcoming year~ My resolution is to stop slacking off~ XD hehehe...I'll work hard on it, but I'll need Ayimaka or Izzy to remind me once in a while.
I didn't see the Rose Parade at all, not even on TV once~ Instead, I slept till 2 that day and then went out to eat with family..^^;; The Rose Parade is all well and good for people who can stand sitting there for 3-4 hours looking at pretty floats, but I don't have that kind of attention span. Too bad for me~ Anyway, it's good that you could take it, Ayimaka~ hehe
I haven't done much this past week other than catch up on certain series...I've just finished reading volume 8-12 of HxH...and all I can say is Hisoka is a lech~ *_*; I've also been reading some HxH douji, and find that most douji artists disturbing draw Kurapica like a complete waif..aka "I'm a helpless girly boy, please save me Leorio!" But I guess the other stories are okay. I still don't get what the blood pact Killua had with his father represents though. ~_~;
np>>Angelic Layer - Character Vocal 02 - Batsu game de charaya<< nyoro nyoro ^o^; icchan and ogata are so cute~ XD
~konran
-Tuesday ~ January 1, 2002-
I was very wrong. My family made me go with them to watch the Rose Parade live in the morning. O_o I didn’t really want to go, but at least I didn’t have to sleepover at someone’s house and have a lousier time. Anyways, I packed my stuff, but then I forgot my batteries, so I couldn’t listen to my music. Darn.
The night air was chilly, so the windows were all rolled up AND IT WAS A D*MN GOOD THING THEY WERE CUZ PEOPLE THREW MARSHMALLOWS WRAPPED IN WET TOILET PAPER AT OUR CAR. What in the world?! I stopped boiling inside and started exploding. I cussed my head off.
We spent the night (uncomfortably) in my dad’s store. At least we didn’t have to sleep in the streets. We unpacked and then decided to take a walk down Colorado Rd (?) GAWSH, it was horrible cuz it was noisy, dirty, crowded, and stuffy because so many people were smoking. And it was really annoying when people *forced* a pamphlet/booklet into your hand. And then there were kids (and adults) who threw marshmallows at passing cars. Okay, I didn’t know that’s a “tradition” they do on New Year’s Eve. ::coughs:: All right, I apologize for losing my head earlier. v_v I still feel like a stupid moron. I can’t believe how mean I was.
Well, moving on, I watched people throw things and then someone suddenly shouted “HELLO!” in my face. “What in the world?!” O_o Then I recognized W and his friend. So, we walked together part of the way and W continued to shout hello to people he recognized.
My family and I got up at around 5:30 (too early!), ate stuff, and then we walked to the street that we had been to
last night. D*mn, the parade didn’t reach our street until after THREE hours of waiting. It was friggin cold and horribly stuffy cuz of the smokers. It was also boring too (until I ran into W again). FINALLY, the parade came to our street. It was pretty cool, actually, cuz I was watching it live for the first time ever. Everyone looked exhausted, tho, except for the people on horses (duh). I felt sorry for the marching bands. Geez, 5 miles of walking AND performing. Columbine’s marching band actually participated. A lot of people were shocked. “Is that REALLY Columbine?! Wow!”
The floats were nice, I guess. They looked better out in the sun than under those tents. Hehe. I recognized the ones I had seen during the service. ~ I liked the one where people were dangling from wires. They were supposed to be birds and butterflies. There was one guy who bounced around in the air A LOT, and I didn’t realize that he was trying to grab a dangling wire until he actually grabbed it and pulled himself back into the birdhouse. O_o
I saw a guy in a red coat riding in a car, but didn’t recognize him. Well, no one announced anything. Yet, one guy ran up to the car and tried to take a picture, but this body guard (?) stopped him and told him to sit back down.
O_o It wasn’t until I watched the reruns at home that I finally realized it was REGIS. O_o Wow, I can’t believe I didn’t recognize him. And he was wearing that bright-colored coat, too. O_o;; No wonder why that man tried to get a picture.
I guess the parade was pretty entertaining. I won’t mind being dragged along if we watch it live again next year. I just hope the air won’t be so stuffy. ::Ayimaka now grins
wickedly and rubs her hands:: And if I do go...I’m gonna 2, baby!
Ayimaka
bring a BIG BAG OF MARSHMALLOWS AND STRIKE BACK!!!
Anyways, ::clears throat:: HAPPY NEW YEAR! Whoohoo! 2 0 0
-Monday ~ December 31, 2001-
::waves to Kon-chan and Izzy-chan and minna-san::
Happy New Year's Eve for now, everyone. And Happy New Year for tomorrow and the rest of the year.
::sighs:: I'm still grounded, so I'm still stuck in my room. I like being at home, but for no more than five days cuz I just can't get along with my family for very long. I'm the black sheep/rebel/oddball. I'm more "Americanized" than the rest of the family...and ::coughs:: always speaking my mind... So put two and two together and poof! You now know why I'm grounded. ::sighs:: Of different worlds. What can I say? When the worlds clash, they REALLY clash and things get VERY ugly.
I wonder what's gonna happen later. I'm supposed to spend the night under the stars or in the car or in my dad's store with my family cuz we're supposed to watch the Rose Parade *live* tomorrow morning. Well, I guess it's gonna be everyone minus me. I'll probably be sent to the house of one of my parent's friends. I'll be far away from home, far away from my computer, far away from my MP3's and my CD's and my radio, far away from my TV, far away from my bed... FAR AWAY FROM MY ROOM!
Ayimaka
-Friday ~ December 28, 2001-
Participated in the Rose Parade Float Decorating service today. Woke up at 7 am (early ~_~). Got to the tent by 8. 'Bout 20 people from school came. Lots of people from other places (Girl Scouts, etc). Practically everyone there was mean and cranky. ~_~!!! But the person I got really pissed off at was this stout woman with glasses. Why? Because she gave us directions like we were babies and then she asked, "Are you all foreign exchange students?" I answered for our table, "Uh, no. We're from GHS." GRRRR. EXCUSE ME?! Just because we're a minority in that city doesn't mean that we're STUPID, IGNORANT, NON-ENGLISH SPEAKING PEOPLE. I thought that was an insult... I got really pissed off when K got a nasty cut from the blade while chopping off the stems of the roses. I was concerned and pissed off at the same time. Concerned cuz he was hurt. Pissed off because that woman passed by and REALLY thought that we were STUPID and couldn't understand English. So...I took over and was careful with my hands and the roses. Then she passed by and said, amused, "Oh. So you're taking over now!" I said, "Yes." And smiled. GRRRR. Then P whispered to me, "Whoa, you showed her!" *Sighs*
So...I did the chopping and the group stuck the roses into these neat lil viles. We were working peacefully. And then these two people came over (brother and sister). They were nice... I know... but I got annoyed... It must have been evident on my face because P sorta frowned at me. Well, that guy said, "This is the vilest job around. Hehe." At first, I didn't get it, but then I did. VILES. VILEST. Ahaha... And then he said, "ONLY a few million people will see your work on TV. NO pressure. Hehe." And J was all like, "HUH?" So I said, "It's sarcasm." J: "Oh!" O_o;
~*~ Ran into T. I gotta admit something: he looks SO different outside of school... in a good way. O_o; I really like his thug look. XD ~*~
"A" did not show up. ::shrugs:: What made me think a guy like him would come play with roses like the other people? Hmm...must be that memory from my freshman year: he came in the middle of the afternoon shift and took a seat somewhat near where I had been sitting.
~*~ OKAY, back to the original topic! O_o;; Throughout the day, I did wicked imitations of those adults. I used my most annoying high-pitched tone and mocked, "Girrrrls! Git outta the way!!! You're blocking the walkway! SEE the 'WALKWAY'??" and "Oh really?? They sent YOU HERE?" One woman couldn't understand me when I spoke. x_X "What group are you girls from? Girl Scouts?" (O_o;) I said, "GHS Interact." "HUH???" "Interact." "INTEREST?" "Interact..." "INTRESS?" "INTERACT." Then she shook her head and gave up and just gave us a job. ~_~ ::Poor E, tho, she really wanted to work on the actual floats instead of smushing the apricots with us.:: Someone said she saw a guy eat an apricot while he THOUGHT no one was looking. XD Haha! So I did an imitation and S laughed really HARD. O.o; Was it really that funny?
At one point, one of us noticed a couple over by the tree, making out like CRAZY. FOR A REALLY LONG TIME, too. What was funny was that FINALLY, one of those cranky/mean people came out and said, "YOU KNOW, there are boxes that you two can help us out with. And there are things you can do for us. How does that sound?" XD And five minutes later... they were grumpily cutting up flower petals over some cardboard boxes.
So...I guess the service was crappy (and my body is all sore ::especially my legs cuz we were standing all day:: >_<), but hanging out with my friends made the day cool. I didn't really mind waiting with them for 3 HOURS for G's aunt to come pick us up and drive us home. ^^;
Ayimaka
-Friday ~ December 28, 2001-
11:50 PM PST
I just finished watching the third OVA for Alien 9...
and my response is ...
THAT ANIME IS SO MESSED UP! I was traumatized for the whole day afterwards, staring at the computer screen, gaping. Ahhh...it's the fact that I still like the show that scares me. I thought the second and third episodes were super screwy. It was like, 'WHAT the HELL just happened?!' and 'WHAT DOES THIS MEAN!?' when I was done. Yes, many people have said that I have a weird taste in anime/manga, and I can tell them now that I agree with them. I DO have a weird taste in anime that don't make sense (DIGI-CHARAT! XD) but that's just me. I really like the blobby faces and the music in Alien 9 also. And Kasumi-chan is so cool~ XD NYA!! And was it just me or is there something going on between Yuri-chan and Kumi-chan? O_O; I mean, you just don't blush like that....and the hug; that was weird...
Anyhow, I can't believe a week of break is already coming close to an end...I wish it slow down ;_; I still need to do my homework also...~_~; nya~ well, I better start on it now...
np>> Alien 9 - Flower Psychedelic ~type KASUMI~<<
~konran
-Wednesday ~ December 26, 2001-
4:44 PM PST
Finally~ new layout is done~ *_*; Hope everyone had an enjoyable Christmas~ ^^ I kinda put this together yesterday night while chatting with Ayimaka, and she was telling me how she liked Yukito from CCS. But since I like Yue more, I decided to make him the coverguy, er, coverPERSON of this layout. Why is it 1.5 and not 2.0? Because Ayimaka gave me the idea of making a winter version~ and because I already made the layout for version 2.0 before I made this..O_O;
Anyway, I didn't do much for Christmas other than going out to eat with my family and sleeping in. ^__^ Sleeping is one of my favorite pastimes; that, and reading manga~ XD
np>> Track 06 - Kaitou Sinbad (Chiba Susumu) - Everyone's Future<<
~konran
-Wednesday ~ December 26, 2001-
12:10 AM PST
'Twas the night of Christmas (Online)
by Ayimaka ^.^;;; (written out of utter boredom)
'Twas the night of Christmas
Everyone was online
Since the parties had ended,
At 11:09.
All PCs were new and running,
The screens flashed and gleamed.
I was reminded of Best Buy,
Each room was a magical scene.
A pile of floppies
Formed a mountain on my desk,
Waiting patiently to be organized
When I decided to clear the mess.
I had boxes opened
All filled with styroforms, don't know you,
Like every other person,
Who hoped Father Internet would show.
Everyone was at home
Using AIM and such,
Chatting about Father Internet,
Some bragging like they knew so much.
I was still staying up
Getting my dumb comp to run faster,
'Til the thought of it crashing...
That'll be a disaster!
I slowly walked out
Into the kitchen for a drink.
But I heard a loud click and rushed back--
No time to think.
My screen went blank
But there came a sound,
Like dialing tones,
Although my comp had shut down.
Could this be...
Father Internet, true?
Why yes, it was him!
I was shocked--you would be, too!
He jumped out the screen
And hit with a thunk.
He nimbly stepped over
The floppies and junk.
His outfit was red
With 0 and 1 designs.
Some spots were marked
By symbols and lines.
He set about moving
From box to box
And filled them up
With weird gadjets and clocks.
He took apart my comp
And examined the parts.
He wrote in a notebook
Little checks and marks.
He toyed with my comp parts
And then put them back together.
My comp was soon whole again,
And it functioned so much better!
Soon his work was all done
And he left as he came,
To his sleigh, run by mircochips,
He called each my name.
On Memory, on Sound,
On Program and Color!
Run Command--That's right!
And run Scan!
I rushed towards my screen
And stared excitedly at it.
I could see Father Internet
Just before he disappeared with a loud click.
He waved a mouse pad
And laughed, "Ho! Ho! Ho!"
I was sad about his departure
And said, "No! No! No!"
Oh well...
I sat down in front of my computer
And then smiled gleefully.
I just remembered--"He made it run better!"
So, I turned off my computer,
With a great feeling, you bet!
"Starting tomorrow, I will really enjoy my comp!"
All thanks to ol' Poppa Net.
Ayimaka
-Monday ~ December 24, 2001-
1:40 AM PST
~Ayimaka, ne ne, that's because he IS a jerk~ >XD He should have said 'thank
you' in person. IM-ing you on AIM is just lame~ (ohohoho...) IMO~ XD
Street Fighter?! w00t~ I used to kick butt in that game~ *used ryu the most* ehh..ahhh...but I'm more into RPGs'
nowadays...and love sims...just because they're fun...@_@;
Oh yeah, Have a fun Merry Chrismas Eve, minna~! *_*
np>> Ani Cover Seiyuu Daishuugou ~ Nobutoshi Hayashi - Yattaman no Uta<<
~konran
Giddy~XD
